In a previous post I have talked about how family and relatives want to dictate the way you live. And I may have sounded all liberal and grand, but after a wedding and a winter solstice dinner, I have reflected...is it me? Am I the problem? Am I the bratty little one? Have I taken for granted the love that they as the last generation of Chinese disguise as nagging me? Or is my gut feeling of being genuine about my feelings on this blog right? Is my instinct of moving out at the age of 31, being closer to my day job so I have more time and privacy to do my night job--writing wrong? I still haven't figured out yet but I do think I should reevaluate the way I feel like my relatives are nagging and think of it as their way of caring. I mean if they didn't care they could have easily said nothing. But they said something, which takes effort and the risk of me being annoyed.
But one thing is for sure is that I really like family gatherings. However small they are. The people you don't get to see until the holidays and you catch up as if you just last saw them yesterday, is kind of really nice. I hope we keep up with that somehow.
This Christmas I am very much thankful for the many great things that happened that also gives hope to the future. So if you are feeling upset, let me tell you I have been there, but it is the holiday season, stop moping and pick yourself up and be grateful. Cause I sure am. Happy Holidays!
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